Lame excuse

Excuses where lame
That I tame
But hard to change habits
That I cohabit
It was my demerit
Unknowingly that I inherit
Pausing my words
Ceasing me to leewards
Restricting me to try
Filling me with shy
Creating the fear
That was hard to bear
Punching thorny pain
Making me howl being insane
Losing my voice
Unable to make choice
Whether it should be Expressed
Or to stay depressed
With the thought
What if she gets hurt